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The life of afterglowleeLife's like a box of chocolates.You will never know what you gonna get. 10月15日 DestinyIt's a whole year again.
I learned one thing:
Never fight against destiny.
You know what is destiny?
It is a future you can not deny.
The true beauty of destiny lies on:
You can imagine it
But you never change it.
Like Cowhand and Weaver Maid
They cry out 'how I am longing a single chance to see you again!'
'Just follow my direction, you are not entitled to change my order' strictly told by destiny
Impossible is the only word to modify the action of attemping to change the fate. 9月20日 Different, very differentWith disappointment, nervous and maybe some expectation, I will be stepping into Sep,21. I used to consider this will be a big day for me. But in fact, I am sure nothing 'can' happen tomorrow. I don't who said it, Life is just a game. I think maybe the one who said it must be a self-mockery. Life is a game? I never dare treat life like a chess game or poker. But I know, it is a kind of attitude: spend every day casually, don't be too critical or serious to everything.
The matter for me is, I am so serious about my further. When my classmates are applying for their favourite universities and communicate with professors, I stay and wait. I don't why. Maybe it is due to the recent experience that 'inspire' or 'stimulate' my brain. I thought there exists some unfair or unjustice, because of the diffience of the region, time or sth else. But I never expect, it's so 'unfair'. It's discrimination!
I know I shouldn't throw my complain around. If you are Einstein, you can go anywhere(I mean any university you want). So, what I should do is study hard. Time to give myself some confidence and courage. I have no way to pull back. If I am better, I am bound to go a better place, and it all depend on myself. 9月9日 Rainy in Sep,9It has been a extremely long time since I last come here. I don't know what's wrong with my campus. It is said that the problem is due to 'the failed combination of Database, and the unmature-tech they used to update the database', kind of a pile of nonsence, ridiculous garbage excuses. I have to admit, a life without internet is a life without excitement.Everyday, I was thinking about how many emails may I get and new moives had been launched but I couldn't watch it.
Today is a rainy day. After so many days' baked under the sun, we finally enjoy a gust of cool breeze.Though I feel tiny chilled,it's so cool! When I stand on the balcony, I watched the thriving scene of new comers of the campus. I was one of them three years ago. But now, I really looks like a 'big brother' of them. I am not so excited about the new comers anymore. One reason is they are 1300 in all, which means 1300 body or head or mouth are cramed into the already jam campus, I will feel breathless. Another reason is I have to hear about the endless complaint of the poor facilities of the campus. I have nothing to do about it. I only want to say, take it easy, or if you are capable enough, try to leave here.
There is an interview the day after tomorrow. Fight! 8月17日 I was chosen again and again!'SOMEONE' again, chose me to answer a pile of questions, AGAIN! He also ordered me not write English. Here are the answers:
（一）喜欢张信哲的歌吗？注意我说的是歌不是人。为什么？
答：一直很喜欢。他的歌挺有意境的，而且嗓音也很特别，是我喜欢的类型。 （二）如果。我是说如果。你将要死去。最想对什么人说什么？ 答：我想对阎王爷说：“我能不能不死？” （三）张信哲出了新歌叫什么名字？喜欢不？ 答：昨天刚看到，今天突然想不起来了。 （四）要是没有了手机会习惯吗？非要用吗？ 答：我大一大二时都没手机。其实没手机挺好的，想要遇到你只能看“缘分”。
（五）下雪的时候会想起什么人？心里感觉如何？ 答：想起小时候跟人打雪仗，堆雪人。上海这边的雪太小，希望能下大一点儿... （六）如果让你选择可以失去从前的记忆重新开始生活。你愿意吗？有多愿意或者不愿意？ 答：不愿意。谁都不认识了，身边一个人也没有，太夸张了吧。 （七）有没有过看电影感动得流泪的经历? 答：没有。感动的很多，流泪的从来没有。
（八）有没有过因为某个演员去看一出戏?如果有,那个演员是谁? 答：没有。
（九）你觉得你的生活里成功多还是挫折多? 答：成功：挫折＝1：5
（十）如果一个你不喜欢的人把你当朋友,你会和他相处么? 答：会的。很多情况下你是没发选择的。
（十一）如果看过<飘>的话,请回答: 给男生的问题:你喜欢斯佳丽还是玫兰尼? 答：玫兰尼。外表虽然比较柔弱，但是内心很坚强，比较会体贴照顾人，从来不发小姐脾气，她的性格我非常喜欢。
给女生的问题:你喜欢瑞特还是卫希礼? （十二）你觉得自己现在像个大人还是孩子? 答：I am not a boy, not yet a man.(抱歉，还是要用句英语）
这游戏有意思吗？行，下面我也问了。嘿嘿，你说回答不能用英语.好，我现在就用英语问，看过《达芬奇密码》的人注意了：
No.13 q:Do you think the Sangreal stands for womb?
No.14 q:Can you list the twelve constellation of zodiac?
No.15 q:Do you think Jesus really married Magrette and as the descendence of Chinese Confusious
Jesus's " grand[-grand]* child" (Rabbit独创的用正则表达式表示一个人的后代，自豪中...) is still
alive?
No.16 q: What is sex ritual? Do you believe that when you get to the orgasm, you can see the god?
If you say yes, then how many times you have seen Him?
No.17 q: Who(both boys and girls) around you do you think is the most 'beautiful' in terms of PHI Theory?
No.18 q: In the field of writing( novels, essays, poems etc), which one is the best seller around year 2003 according to
Da Vince's Code? I can tell you that Dan Brown is the most 'rich' writer now. He earn more than 700dollars per
second.
好了，绍俊一定要回答哦！而且不许用中文！ 这些问题对Sophia和Tempest应该是很简单啦。谁闲着没事就答答啦。下面说点其他的。
I will go back tomorrow! My god, this is the first time I stay for more than a month since the very start of my college life. I have seen so many of my friends. It is likely that I won't come back around Chinese New Year. So maybe it is one year after when we see each other again. But I am terribly afraid that maybe this is the last time in the lives to see each other. How time flies! Three years! When we all eager to start our university life, when we talk over the phone about the interesting things happen around us, three years has passed. Career is right in front of all of us. Are you ready, my dear friends? I will bless all of you all the time. 8月14日 Music DinnerIt's a pretty dull and busy time in the summer vacation, which may be the last one in many's lives. Fortunately, this is the high time for musicians to realease their new record and album. So everybody who loves music can enjoy the wonderful music dinner now.
First one is a band, F.I.R with their new record called 'Flying Tribe'. F.I.R is a talented band indeed. Their music style varies, jazz, rock, metal,pop etc. You can find different theme in their songs, such as love, friendship, religions, persueing your dream, never give up... But most important, I love the rhythm. In the new record, they search the feel of the initiation of the band. All the songs tell us how the group began to create their own style, how they found their inspiration and how they co-operated with each other( they said so in the interview, though I can't quite catch it indeed ^_^). I love 'Flying Tribe' and 'Sakura in the rain' very much.
The second one is also a band, S.H.E. Their new album named Forever, which means the three girls, Selina, Ella and Hebe will forever a group. This record is a selected recollection with several new songs. You can find their reperformance of westlife's Soledad (the song is renamed Wistaria Flower) and a new song Electric Shock. Both of them are very nice. By the way, you can hear Electric Shock when opening Tempest's blog.
David Tao, Se7en and lots of stars also have their new works, but I am not quite familiar with them%_^. A new singer Tank really catches my eyes, esp. his song Thousand Years' Tears. This song is about the legend of Chinese Valentine's Day, the Seventh day of Seventh month in Solar Calendar. The rhythm and the lyrics is kind of attractive . Highly recommand you to listen to it.
At last, I think I will go back to my campus in several days' time. Now I am busy with buying a ticket back. Believe it or not, it's really extremely a terrible work. You even have to show your id if you want get a berth ticket! What a hell! 8月3日 Written down one year agoHere's the entry I wrote one year ago. Please see it. I wrote a lot indeed.
I can still recall clearly what I was thinking at that moment. I said to myself at that time, I wanted to see what would happen after a whole year's time. In fact, to be honest, believe it or not, everything is the same, except for I am one year older and I am facing the graduation now.
Strange......Have you caught by such feeling：you expect a lot, but when you get it, you feel it is not as good or excited or nervous or wherever emotions as you anticipate？Something,which you are looking forward in your life time, only offers you a light feeling, not as strong as you imagine. If it is just a moment's satisfactory,a flashing by sense of succusfulness why I spend bewildering amount of time to make it come true to me...... Maybe I only need the process, not the result. Maybe I only want to touch the feeling, not hold it. Maybe it is only an excuse to trap myself, not a way to release myself. 7月20日 SoledadI have been home for several days. I can't control my feelings. My momery soars in the sky of my childhood. Where are you, my dear friends? Some of you are still staying in school becasue of various of reasons, some of you never show up again, some of you come back but go back before I come back...
My mom always complain of the narrowness of my little room. Her first work after I came back was asking me if I could throw away some of my cassettes or tapes. So spent days to choose which tapes I like and keep. I still remember, years ago when school was over, I sat beside my desk at home, listening to the tapes, most of them popmusic. Now I place them in my shelf and I have ignored them for years. Today, when I reopened the door of the shelf, an eerie emotion rasied up in my brain. My intuition told me that I didn't like them, coz dust on the surface of each tape make me aweful. But they are the tapes I used to love most. I decided, I couldn't throw them away. I would keep all of them.
I picked up a tape by random. It was westlife's record 'coast to coast'. I put it in my old tape recorder and played it. The first song played was 'Soledad'. I nearly forgot the song, it's so charming and soft.
What's the meaning of soledad?'It's a keeping for the lonely,since the day that you were gone .Why did you leave me? In my heart you were the only and your memory lives on.' Soledad means loneness and sadness, it means a dream that can never come true, it means the down fall after a long pursue...
Something has done before your awarenes. I have no time to judge it is right or wrong. Follow the routine and never ask why, because there's no reason for sth. I am always pulling back when 'turning point' coming. I say to myself, 'there's still time left, I can make it'. But in fact, I did nothing exactly, only leaving soledad with me. Soledad is just like a cipher that I can never decrypted. I have missed so many things... 7月14日 SimpleI am so glad that I can go back home tomorrow, though I haven't got my ticket yet. I thought I shouldn't be so busy after exam, but the truth is that I was thoroghly occupied by trifles. I walk from my dorm to lab or library and then back, several times per day. But I don't know what I am busy at. Fortunately, it's over. In the recent weeks, applying for privilege student( the admission to postgraduate waived of entrance exams) bothered me a lot. In fact I had mentioned that in my entry on June 25th. What is a privilege student? We still have to pass lots of test before we get the offer and the test is even harder than 'normal' students. I have to do some review work.
Thanks for some of my friends, at the crucial point, I get a clear schdule for the following months. I know what I should do now and after several months. No matter what choice I make, I shall never regret. Some of my friends say my mind is complex and I always think too much, but I should say, NO! Completely NO! I am quite simple. One thing guides me all the time. As long as I can get what I want, what I need, it will be OK for me wherever I go on my study or work.....You know it. You should know it.
Have a long way to go, no time to stop. 7月8日 A day to rememberFirst, let's do some review work. Following is entry I wrote last year at this time, July,8th.
I am alive?I am alive, I think. Thought I stagger down the road of life, I never fall down. I said, at least I had time to think it over. But a whole year has passed, I haven't found the answer yet. Standing at the crossing, I don't know which way to go.
One year ago, I finished all the courses as a sophomore. Now I finished all the courses as a junior,and 'Junior' means young and low level. When can I grow mature enough?Next year? I still get the first place of my major this term, but I feel more confused. What the hell supports me all the time that never allow me to fall behind others? I can feel that I don't work as hard as before.
I don't know if I can still work as hard as before....
Lost. It's a day to remember. 7月1日 Programmer, a tough jobSomebody said she was fed up with my writing in English and the font style was not proper either. Yes, I admit that it will be difficult to read English on the page and my bad written English makes the problem even serious. But I wanna practise because there are no other way for me to write down sth in English. So it depends on you: if you wanna know sth recent about me, get down to read my entries. If you don't have so much patient, it's also OK, open my page and then leave.^_^
I am quite busy after exams. I had finished the hardware and software course design today(yesterday exactly). I found that programmer is not an easy job. Requirement analysis, design and coding are all tough steps. I slept only 4 to 5 hours every day in the last week. I spent most of my time in front of Visual Studio .Net 2003, programming and exchange oppions with my classmates. I was in a team, and I was the team master, so it was my duty to teach my teammates. However, after a week's dedicated work, we could finally hand up my software. Beautiful interface and systemtic coding logic made me feel that my hardworking was meaningful.
I have made a decision: wait and then make a decision after some time. I hope that I can get what I want finally and more important, I won't hurt somebody else including myself. |
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